Joel's Blahg

Friday, 30 October 2009

  • I'm more disappointed than mad at him. You try to help somebody, and they throw it all away.

    I was at Wendy's this afternoon before work, and their was an older, very country man working the drive thru. He did my order like an auctioneer. I was completely amused by it. Life is odd.

    RedBull Float.  Mmm.. ice cream energy!

Thursday, 29 October 2009

  • Today, I've decided that I will fast my 30 minute dinner meal at work, and rather go up to the prayer room. I believe that He will show up... I have no expectations of how. I honestly don't care... I just want Him to be there with me.

    I've hating work like nothing else lately, and today, I feel sorta excited to be there, just so that I can meet Him. Yes, its silly, He's anywhere, and I can talk with Him at anytime. But I need to be able to quiet myself while I'm there, and take break from all the distractions that come to me there (billions of them..)

    Yesterday was interesting though.. I saw a different, kinder, loving side of some people that had given me some hell. I've wanted to strangle them, until I saw they took time to speak encouragement to a fellow employee last night. I'd never spoke anything to them directly about my issues with them... but I did talk to others in my department venting, and saying bad things, and really sorry for that. The tongue is weapon of mass destruction..... I need patience, to be slow of anger, to hold the sword to the ground..

    Hosea 2:14-15 NIV
    "Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her. There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope..."

     

     
  • My priorities are skewed. Sometimes, I just manage, without notice, that I get spiritually off-balance. I'm thankful for the grace He gives to allow me to see these things, before I screw up my life, more than I already do.

    I've been drawing away from the normal life, at least, mentally... Its just one of those times where I need to quiet my soul, and listen for the Lord's voice, deep, and soft within me.. He's there.

    I complain way too much. Not as much as the others I'm around, but I've certainly picked up on their bad habits, and I need to knock it off. Sure, there are plenty of things that could be improved in my life. But... I have running car (so to speak), roof over my head, and still have a full time job. Until I have nothing, and I know I'm the worst off person in the world, then maybe I'll complain... but for now. Be thankful, Joel! Be an encourager to those around you! Stop whining!

    So, Lord, help me.. help me be a better Joel.